relax

I think for the first time in my memory of my life i have made a decision

i'm not worried about it either,  i honestly think it is the right one.

my cat just had a mental spaz in my room, chasing a tiny ball of rubbish then scratching my duvet and walls.

i wonder if cats are happy when they do that? or are they are angry? surly if a human ran around doing that people would think they were nutty. cats are just entertaining. my other cat is now sleeping on my bed.

i like the company.

I am so tired i am at the stage where i dont really feel awake and everything gets to me and i dont know what i feel so i just feel like crying. but i honestly have no tears.

ok well Fridy night couldnt get to sleep till at least 2am, just sat in my lounge doing nothing.

slept in till 11 which i never do had a bowl of cereal and went to bed again.

woke up at 2pm txt my friend Elaine i havent seen in months. went for a walk on the beach with her which was beautiful. i really enjoyed that. shes not friends with any of my other friends so shes just my special friend that i can just go tell everything thats on my mind. sort of to offload.

 she isnt christian but she is fully supportive and the sweetest person so i miss not seeing her often, even though she lives around the corner as weve grown older weve both become busy.

she had work from 5.30 till midnight so i just chilled at her house had dinner with her family. it was nice because it was like being alone and away from everything really. i didnt have to worry about anything. i feel so at home when i go to her house its so relaxing.

tomorrow will be a good day.

golfing slash studying with Thomas Carter.

make up for not seeing him on his birthday!

sleep time