hello *smile*

Hi blog.

my weekedy end...

Ran the mercy 'walk' mainly with Thomas. got all sweaty and sore. it was great.
went kayaking for two hours for school. my arms got sore.
me Shawn Koh, Josh Ell, Thomas Carter, James Capz went to tennis for ages and watched James play hes the man at tennis. went to his flash house had a beautiful shower after a morning of exercise.
Sams 21st had the best speeches, nearly cryed at a few of them. e.g Lukes and his mums probably because there family it was truly touching.

Church church church
Rocket was heck-tick in Kapiti.
Space party was so much fun, seeds were planted in kids, Jesus will get them! wahahaha
that sounded like i was joking, but i wasn't.



I want to be punched in the face by Jesus
I want direction in my life
I want answers

I want to know who i am

I think that is important
and i truly don't feel like i know who i am
I know you start acting slash speaking like the people you hang around but does that mean you become like them? waah


I am a daughter and beautiful women of God
I need to start speaking positive things over my life.

Bro. also am thinking that Jesus is moving really fast in New Zealand.
maybe thats why everybody is rush rush rushing around feeling like they have no time. me included.



Also don't want to be to caught up in something so much that i get to the point where i feel like i cant get out of it. or maybe thats a good thing if im happy?
ok being completly honest i dont think ive ever been certain of anything in my life
not one thing, except im certain ive never been certain. oh and that i love Jesus thats crucial.

Bye blog.

pretty.

 

 

True beauty.

low key reflecting on things

i have a memory box only recently made, everything in it would be so random to anybody except me. thats the beauty of a personal memory box.

'lady jess'

you are my God

There is truly no place like home.



I got a taste of the summer this weekend. and it had nothing to do with the weather.
In summer i am generally never home. Last summer i wasnt home for a month at one time, so when i do get home, say hi to the family i really feel like i can relax and it is such a good feeling having my own bed and toilet back.

Being honest church yesterday was actually amazing, i use amazing a lot and just say it without thinking but i have thought about it and it was amazing. Ps Ronnie and John spoke two powerful messages.
everyone went to James Duxfields after 5.30 service. it was nice i like being surrounded with church family and e few people i havent met yet. Experienced 3D snap for the first time, still dont quite get it, also tryed Dr pepper for the first time Sam Forty said i wouldnt like it trying it for the first time but it wasnt bad.
Wish i could have stayed longer but Jess Baker wanted to go home and i was staying at hers.

Done some quality thinking on the train slash bus replacement. 
i do enjoy the time i get alone, when im travelling or walking and not doing anything in paticular.

"here i am to worship, here i am to bow down, here i am to say that your my God.
your altogether lovely, altogether worthy, altogether wonderful to me"



Think i want to start reading books again. i used to read all the time, kinda miss it.

" it takes no time to fall in love. but it takes you years to know what love is"
found this quote and wondering if it is true. i definatly dont know what love is.

rediscovered 'chasing cars' by snow patrol
can't stop listening to it

There is truly no place like home.

nutella

I miss having dinner at the dinner table

it is quality bonding time with the family that i miss from childhood.

seams like dinner has turned into eat whenever you can, especially when hockey season was on

in the holidays just past i had dinner at home once. one time in two weeks!

my poor family misses me and im still living at home.

Tiana nearly crys when i go on holiday, she misses family a fair lot.

I'm a bit different. I don't really miss people untill i see them again and realise how much i have missed them Not sure whether that's a bad thing or not though.

3.30am been watching infamertials while on facebook for hours while Austin and Rachel are out to it on the couches, they had a nutella fight earlier. went everywhere. hopefully chocolate comes out of the carpet. for Rachels sake.

Glad theres no school tomorrow.

Pumped theres Elevate tomorrow.

Some things i need to recieve

I have learnt you can't change a person they can only change themselves so i generally know the stuff i am being told is true its just going to take some effort for me to change.

God is working with me, its a slow process.

 p.s. The awkward moment when your at somebodys house and dont know were to find a blanket. should have gotten this sorted before my host fell asleep. now it's time for a 3.30am treasure hunt. yes i treasure blankets they keep you warm with a slight sense of protection when sleeping.

what a day

7.30am got up had weet-bix for breakfast
Jesus time
back to bed
12.13pm got up again
youtube/facebook
hung out the washing
made cheese and crackers for lunch
ate lunch
got dressed
walked george the dog with tiana
went on the flying fox at the park
sat by a stream and threw rocks in it
saw abandoned records now rubbish
got lost in pram, was weird having lived here for 8 years
saw a guy running
saw a guy biking
saw a swamp that would have scared me if it was dark
heard a guy talking on a walky talky
discovered where i was
climbed a cut down tree log, made me feel like climbing a tree
saw the same guy running
headed back
saw the guy that was talking on the walky talky
ran and jumped over puddles with Tiana, George avoided them
walked past two guys in the bus stop George said hello. they smiled back
went home
brought in the washing
got changed
went to the gym
did zumba at the gym
went home
ate a salad
had a shower
watched the end of avatar with Tiana
facebook/blogging
12.00am sleep.

p.s the good thing about this day is that it didn't involve college.
p.p.s i generally don't like dogs. but i like George it is impossible to be unhappy around him.

the road..

Wow i havent driven in awhile!

I drove home from the gym today, it feels good to be in control of something   finally.

 life has been crazy lately, i dont think it has been a bad crazy. just confusing crazy.

i need to talk to my dad

I would like to get my restricted soon preferably before December the 8th. on that date i would have had my learners for 2 years! thats just unheard of. who does that? well me craaazy much.

I actually love driving. being in control. i was born for it.

Tiana doesnt have school tomorrow. stupid teachers only striking year 9's.

The rain is so loud i couldnt hear my music for a minute. aaaaah. ive decided i couldnt live without music.

:) a simple smiley face. brightens things.

cha cha cha.

im ready for holidays. i think i need a holiday. not just time off school but time away.

Blogging makes you think about what your actually thinking about, or how you think about things that have happened in your day/week. I like that i have opened my life up to blogging.

saw my sister for dinner, then she went back home.

heard parents fight twice today got me thinking, i think i would be happier if they were.

cut myself with my own nail. ouch.

found a random large bruise on my leg

back is still in pain. but will be healed in Jesus name

my eyes can't sit still!

think i ate something funny

wish Tiana was happier also.she made me something at school the other day. that was cute. shows she was thinking of me. i always think about her. she probably doesnt realise. but i do love her more than she thinks i do i know that for a fact. which is a sad fact.

sleep time.

have been having really weird dreams lately

sweet dreams for tonight

Rain

It's raining today.

I can smell the rain and it smells so fresh!

I like swimming when its raining it's a nice feeling

 He shall come down like rain upon the mown grass: as showers that water the earth. Psalms 72:6

I dont mind getting wet i think its more the getting dry and warm again i worry about.

wish it was easier to contact people.

The start. slash not really.

OK. So this is the start.
of my blogging life.
it's actually 17 years into my actual life which so far has been a journey filled with many experiences,
good and not so good ones, i have gotten through this far without any fillings or broken bones (i don't count my fractured wrist as broken) just severe sunburn, which is common in teenages trying to get a tan for the summer.
SUMMER is near which is exciting. although the weather hasnt quite made up it's mind yet, it's close and im hopeful it will be here soon!
Hello sunsets!
this is kapiti island, i see this everynight. its beautiful.
looking out to a sea where there is no island is now kinda weird.

Elevate tonight was honestly incredible!!
spontanuity is a beautiful thing.
I treasure it.

I need to learn to go to bed earlier, this not much sleep thing doesnt work well for me. it is a bad habit starting to form and i need to get rid of it before it's stuck!

listening to Starfield right now. they are inspirational.

im yet to find my talent. or talents. i hope i have more than one.

"im one of those people who think alot but suck at wording my thoughts.."  this quote i had to steal. thanks Luke Smith!

I currently have a headache (and have sort of had it all day) i think my nose smelt to many strong smells today eg: fresh paint, perfumes. then all the singing slash screaming at Elevate.

oh drats i let my tea go cold again!

ahhhhh God is moving! He is doing unexplainable things it wows me.
Hes moving in Arise Church, Elevate and in ME and i am truly happy, because of him, all my childhood 'joy' has returned and i can feeeeeel it! 
Thank you Jesus!
Amen.

P.S thanks Sam Forty. this is fun!